DISCLAIMER: Dark mood ahead.
Remember the time when you promised yourself you will not
change what you are, that you love yourself the way you are. But just like the
moon morphing itself gradually with time you change too. Whether you like it or
not. You are not what you were 5 years ago, hell not even few seconds ago. Some
people say “never change yourself” think again are they giving you a good
advise or a bad one. Change is happening and whether you want that to happen or
not.
Sometimes you feel like the captain of the ship, who has no
control on the winds which is forcing the ship go in the direction its not
suppose to go. Its strange when you look back to all the things you did and
thought you did do. The explanations you had for all kinds of theories, the
ample possibility of your kaleidoscopic imagination, when you actually thought you
could win the world with your imagination super power. And then suddenly while
you were sniffing benzol in the lab you come across a bottle of ammonia and
recoil with disgust, but by then the smell stays, obliterating any traces
of the sweet scent of benzol. The sting of ammonia knocking on the peeling
black door of reality.
If someone asked me why did you change if you didn’t want
to? I would answer him by smacking his head with a heavy book of “on the origin
of species”(by Charles Darwin). The whole book boils down to this point that “if
you ain't changing you ain't surviving”.
If you had the power to be how you were, would you go back
to your old self? A Penny for your
thought.
